Showing posts from March, 2013

Hospital Stay

I'll never forget the first time I saw Alexandria smile. She was laying in my arms. It was the early hours of the morning like 1 or 3 a.m. It was just me and her in the room. She wasn't even a day old yet. You may not believe she could smile in response to anything yet, and you may believe it was just gas, but I know in my heart that she heard me. She heard me say "I love you Alexandria". She heard it and responded by flashing a big grin. To be honest, I think this was the first time I told her I loved her. I did not try to become pregnant and a part of me was excited and a part of me was upset, simply just because of the timing. When I had Alexandria, I think my hormones were really messed up. I knew I loved her, I knew my life would never be the same without her, yet I didn't feel that immediate bond that I felt with Nikolai and Victoria. I have kept that to myself until now. I'm embarrassed by it but it's the truth. I didn't immediately feel bonded…

New Addition: Alexandria Konstantine

November 14, 2012. Alexandria Konstantine. 7 lbs 10oz. Beautiful. Gorgeous.  This is the day my third daughter was born. Two days before her due date.  Her first picture. Daddybear cutting the cord. The physical link between me and my baby.. Crying.. Calming down.. Beautiful little toes Little feet Happy Mommy